Friday, October 8, 2010


something I wrote a while back

what if i didnt believe-

heavenly father if you are out of mind
can you open my mind to show me more than i can perceive
please answer me this one grind
what if i didnt believe
would you still love and care my family
they say "god loves all" is it wrong if i disagree
if youre still listening give a second to this wanna be
how come it feels like im the only one that keeps asking why?
will you still answers my prayers?
did you hold her when we all watched our Grandma die
when i die will you still let me come up the Stairs
please let my Sissy come home tonight
please dont make us bury her too
if you have to steal her please give me her address so i can still write
is it really fair to make us go through deja vu
please fuckin explain why growing up everyones nightmare was our everyday
all the hurt and anger made us grow up strong
but the Family Cross is too heavy cant you see im not the only one way past Breakdown
i honestly know heaven is a place i dont belong
i've always been the one everyone points and laughs and says heres the clown
have mercy please God help my family and take their pain
you can give it to me, fuck it, i will be glad to take it
hope when i lay down tonight youre the answer to my question
in everyones elses eyes will i ever be more than a unwanted misfit
forgive and forget me, just take my  Loved Ones out of their Great Depression
so if i say i have a little doubt please dont get mad
when i die if we finally meet face to face
will i still be a subhuman piece of trash or was it the world coloring me bad


  1. Pretty nice poem, got my support.

  2. I wish i was able to write this well good post

  3. I want to show my girlfriend this poem, she love this kind of stuff

  4. wow. honestly, you are a very good poet

  5. I just got done with my GTL session this morning, and I was amused by your post

    keep up the solid work!

  6. this post made me open my eyes and stop squinting!!!

  7. wow! this is really great poem!